I'm a nebula

I'm a nebula
A cluster of dust
I collapse, crumble, collide
and destroy.
I have fire within me,
ignited desires burn my insides.
But, that is what makes me human.
I choose to use the fire,
as warmth when it's snowing.
I choose to burn my ashes,
to enlighten the path.
My mind full of gases,
pushing me forward
towards achieving
my desire,
my goal,
of twinkling in the sky,
of becoming a star
of being a part of
the constellations
I've always looked up to.
Meteors stand in my way
test my patience
my ability to
bind together my bones and rocks.
One day,
I decide to give up.
But,
I ponder,
no one will ever look up at me
with tears in their eyes.
No one will ever say,
with admiration in their tone,
"look how she's shining".
Sadly,
a nebula is just a cluster of dust.
I'm just a cluster of dust.
I collide, crumble, collapse
and destroy.
I don't give up.
Someday, I will be a star.
Slightly more happy,
than I am now.
Slightly more sane,
than I've ever wanted to be.
One day,
I'll light your path,
guide you home
and make sure to
be there
when you have a story to tell.
You will never be alone,
because,
I've been through it all.
I've been through it all.