Dear best friend,

I had given up. It was dark all around. It was a mayhem, of emotions, feelings and a pandemonium of unsaid truths and beautiful lies. I had infinite secrets trapped in my curls. I was willing to let them go, but nobody came around to untangle my thoughts, to shake me into reality. I became as monotonous as a road which was not leading to any destination. I sat motionless, without words for hours in a stretch, never seemed to be getting out of a trance that was set in on ruining my mind. I won't say that you saved me, because you didn't. You made me believe that I am capable of saving myself, that I am indeed alone in this whole wide world and it's not a bitter truth, it's the reality that we spend our entire life running from. You made sure that I knew from the very beginning that everything will never turn out the way I wanted it to, but life will take me there one day. Sometimes, the means you resorted to were a little more than harsh for me to handle, but you made sure I did get the good out of it. I won't say you're a package of miracles waiting to happen, but my love you're an unending source of determination and raw soul. You're just in there, no matter how difficult or rough it might be. You are so fearless, unafraid of rocky roads, and the only thought in your mind is 'if there's a road, it's meant to be traveled on'. You're not a saint, and oh gosh, you're not perfect, you have your own weaknesses, but you're go over the top to make sure they are never visible to the naked eye. We traded looks, feelings, advice, and above all love. You were never the giving kind, you knew the truths of the world since the very start, you knew how it was full of give and take. You made sure to bring out the best in me and take it in to the fullest. You always looked me in the eye, never made me feel like there was any question in whatever you thought. Life wasn't always in our favor, we had our fair share of misunderstandings and heartbreaks, the difference was you never showed me that heart was broken and I left my heart open as a book right in front of you. And, you made sure to never exploit my openness. You made sure to understand how much I cling to you for support in the toughest of times, and you my friend act like that one drop of water to somebody who had been thirsty for days. 

I cannot even begin to describe what I love about you. Your eyes, shining all the time. There is a different kind of shine in your face, which is much more than smooth skin. My mother always said, 'she's got a smile which will help her win the world' and I couldn't agree more. That smile can melt hearts within moments. The best thing about you is that you do not sugarcoat things in life. You make sure that you serve everything in your mind raw and unabridged. I have seen how your eyes light up when you talk about something you're passionate about, how you do your little hand gestures when you're excited, that giggle when you are embarrassed, that disgusted face you make when I make some of my lamest jokes. I admire your quality to gel in with literally everyone no matter how old or young they may be, if they're around you, they will never be disappointed. I can't even begin about how much you inspire me. Your never-ending drive to achieve something in life is beyond me. Never in these twelve years have I heard from your mouth that you do not have the motivation to move forward. You're like this endless source of a queer kind of positivity. 

I've been friends with you for approximately my entire life. And I have seen you go from half ponytails to these never-growing-beyond-a-definite-length hair, from adorably plump to adorably plump but even more adorable, from a carefree child to an amazing young woman. No matter how hard I try, I can never forget you, you're in those parts of my heart that others can't even manage to reach. I still remember the day we met, which is one of the very few things I remember from my childhood. All around I hear people talking about how destiny has a story planned out for us, and how we're meant to meet people we meet since the very beginning. The only proof to the story of destiny in my life, is you. I met you in the weirdest circumstances and it just turned out that you have become an inseparable part of my life. 

Now, according to the B-theory of time, the flow of time is an illusion. There is no past present or future, they are equal and time is tense-less. In special relativity, the relativity of simultaneity shows that each part of the universe can have different set of events as present. I would choose to spend all the different versions of this present time I have with you, walking along the lanes of our locality and laughing so loud that we cannot breathe. 

I love you. 

Yours,

Shreya xo